What's the point of being pretty? Your looks have no effects on your actions and personality, that's just who you choose to be.
People just think that only pretty people do important things because that's how it is in movies.
WELL WAKE UP THATS NOT THE WORLD.
Even if someone is the ugliest, stupidest, weakest person in the world and everyone hated him, he could still change the world for the better.
And you probably couldn't be a singer even if you were pretty, just speaking statistically, there's ALOT of pretty girls that can't be singers.
I don't see how your looks effect your writing at all.
Don't use your looks as an excuse not to live your life to the fullest, I don't care if you look like a lump of poo you could still do great things for the world. Everyone has a reason they're here, people come to Earth deformed, ugly, some people get mutilated in their lives, some people are born without the ability to walk or hear or see AND YOU'RE WORRIED ABOUT LOOKS??
Do you think God cares about how you look? DO you think blind people care about how you look?
Is life only worth living to show off and be accepted by the stupid society of today?
A life spent helping someone blind would be much better spent than being beautiful and just being a dumb piece of eyecandy.
Even if you are judged or people reject you, do you live to be praised and accepted? You live to do good things and enjoy your life, and for that you only need to do your best and love yourself. DO you only love your friends because they're pretty/average? Why would you assume people would only love you because you're pretty/average? Any person who has someone that loves them is living a life with a point because you have become important to someone. And if you cared at all about the people who loved you, you would see that your life has a point.
Although I wrote this really harsh, I really wanted to get my point across because suicide and suicidal feelings are very serious and yours are very stubborn, so I wanted to give the most sincere answer because I really do think that your question is important.